am i a MEAN GIRL??

im gonna lay it out there.. im not all suave with words and all - so here it goes
I FREAKING HATE THE PPL I GO TO GRAD SCHOOL WITH. hate is a strong word, but in fact trust me, I DO HATE THEM. ive tried to hang out with them out of school -- at bars, at coffee shops, i still hate 'em. so why is this coming up now??
well since february 16th i have not been to school. i was on clinicals at the hospital and then i had a month off where i worked my little behind and ofcourse chillaxed ;).. and now after almost 4 months of eternal bliss, i return to that hell hole.
so here it goes and its a long one ahead:
1. ive written about the throat clearing tic in my previous post at the other blog.
i swear i never thought throat clearing of all things would get on my nerves, but she cleares her throat 62 times in a 30 minutes. i swear thats not healthy for you. these aren't little 'ahems", these are killer AAHHHHHHEEEMMMMMMSS. i mean when i sit next to her its like a earthquake in my ear. its horrible and no its not a medical problem - i did ask her that.
it didnt quite go too well when i did (ooopss). what i didnt know, i figured if someone did it soo often something had to be wrong. yea - lets just say after that me and her arent gal pals or anything.

2. "i think im better than you so shushhh". there's this girl in class, she thinks she's soo pretty and little miss perfect, she actually looks down on other people that dont spend hours getting ready in the morning. her and her squint squad of uglies are extremely annoying. just that irritates the crap out of me.. and oh yea, everytime someone talks... she SHUSHHHHS PEOPLE. the first time that happened, i couldnt believe it. excuse me - ARE WE BACK IN 1ST GRADE? who shush's people..

3. i hate the two jokers in class - making fun of everyone, its quite annoying cause everyone thinks "oh they are my friends they wouldnt talk behind my back" and everyone laughs at their jokes. sadly, they talk about EVERY SINGLE PERSON, not sparing even each other. its not the haha kinda laughs either. its the kind that really hurts, that hits that spot you know? its sad, not cause they make fun of people, cause thats how they seek attention.

4. oh then how can we forget the 'engaged and im planning a wedding group". out of 40 people in my class id say 1/4 of them belong to this group. i have really nothing against them, other than the fact that they're soo loud and always meeting in the room i reserve to study. i feel horrible kicking them out, but i reserved it. it says "reserved for paulomee from ___ to ___ " and a time there. so what possess you to occupy the room. then when i kick them out i get looks. they think they derseve the room more cause clearly planning for a wedding is wayy more important than studying. this isnt a one time thing, its a EVERY WEDNESDAY THING. ahhhhhhhh.. u'd think after a month or 2 months they would figure it out. NOPE, its a ritual now.

5. ahh yes, then there's the FREAKS. no no not the im creepy and a goth or something like that. we call them them freaks cause they freak out. i mean obsessive compulsive freaks. they all planners, different colors on the planner mean different things. i would need a planner to follow the original planner. each day is marked on by each note, each note is a different color for each class. each class has a different binder. different colored pens, highlighters, pencils. if you stand by them before a test its crazy. they're all panicking, they all stay up all night studying and dont get me wrong, they had only gone over all the notes 5 times before they started studying for this test. yet they stayed up all night.. and STILL THEY ARE FREAKING OUT. i mean if i stand next to them before a test and they keep throwing out words i HAVE NEVER HEARD BEFORE im gonna FREAK OUT and go in thinking "fuck im gonna fail this.. what the hell did i study" then there goes my confidence and i'll second guess everything on the test and fail it anyways. dont get me wrong, i have a planner and i have highlighters and tabs for classes and shit but if i use blue in more than one class - I DONT GO CRAZY LOOSING SLEEP OVER IT. these people do. its like a crisis ... lol. if this is how you 100's then im quite happy going over my notes 2 times, and getting high B's and low A's. sad!!!

6.then there's this guy. name P. short little kid thinks he's all that. all i get from him is "P and paulomeeeee .. brown and blonde babies.... oooo weee" and seriously its not what he says, its how he says it. to one of my friends whose last name is love, he says "loveeyyy love love... long time no loveeeee" oh dear lord. cheesiness is something he's mastered. so fake, soo annnoying.
this other guy, he's making his way through class by sleeping with one girl at a time. GROSS.

I SWEAR IM NOT MEAN... BUT I REALLY CANT STAND THESE PEOPLE. i have 40 people in my class.. of them i like about 4 people and i can stand another 5 to 10 people. its horrible. may be that i spend 8 hours a day + projects and hw with them for 2 years in a row. i mean with the same 40 people - you can get only so many combinations.

am i really a MEAN GIRL - for hating on everyone??????? its pretty pathetic when the im not dreading the "education" part of going back to school tomorrow the most. the thing i dread the most is that after 4 lovely months of bliss i will see all these people again. lol i havent even started on how annoying and creepy my professors are.. may be i'll save that for another day.